coldness of the breeze, results from the heavy rain is really neutralized the warmth air. i really have a good reason to be sleep for all day long :)
regarding to the previous tag of mine (which is about the 10 facts/hobbies) i think i have to add some more fact -ainaa is a person who suffering from paranoia. yes, its true im a paranoid in a certain circumstances.
ainaa, kau rilek boleh tak?ainaa, jangan gelabah sgt, ish tada benda laaainaa, tak yah pikir sangat, everthing will be fineainaa, bla bla bla-so this is the way it goes
dearest friends, you guys must be remembered this right? -about my math final exam thing which i think i have to repeat that paper and crying like a river, about the google thing at the perhentian annoys me so much and any other examples that i'd rather keep in memory rather than to expose it all. malu tau kadang kadang
there, i wish for, i can have for a brain operation so that i can leave behind forsaken the neurons that led me thinking too much. macam saya selalu cakap kat aifa - aifa, i wish i were you. (not that i want to be as gorgeous as aifa, but i just envy her mind thinking)
i think this is the genes from my mom. ive got a lot similarism with my mom. if you wonder wheres my hypersensitive quality come from, it is from my mom. and a fews more similarity but that is not what i want to entry about tonight.
*long pause*
watching MJ's little daughter speech at her dad memorial service which like everyone could burst into tears just by hear the 20 seconds speech. and still fresh in my mind, hani karmilla a daughter to arwah hani mohsin which lost her father in a blink of an eye not along time ago. both of them lost their father at early a
ge, and they have all my sympathy.
what pops a question in my head is, what if im at their shoes? what if this is going happen to me? what if... what if... what if... (so now you really get the idea of me being a paranoia right)
because why?
beacuse, i followed my dad today to meet a chinese doctor and i heard obviously all the things that is my dad suffers for (but not too cronic, you guys can breath now) but i just i think ayah is getting old, it is like im growing up or what? still, ayah didnt make any shock expression and it is really shocked me! the feeling when it was 5 years back then, really swaying me now. when the moment i'd spending my time on vacation with my sisters and suddenly got a call inform that ayah got a heart attack! ya allah, the time that i swear only god knows what we feel.
what i just want to say is, i pray for ayah's healthy life and long-live so that i would be able to repay all of his kindness that i know a thousands years cant repay, amin. nothing gonna fight my love to my family. nothing
p/s : i was with ayah just now at the pc helping him to download his fav songs, the classic one i must say. sometimes ayah is too cute, hehe